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Its Official Now...
I have EVERYTHING.

still....who am I
What am I here for...
Whats the point...
Love?
How.....
Just a few years to go 77, if you want to round off...
For how long...will Something in me , keep on judging me ...and others...
thinking that the others are judging me too
Fear?

Where does it end
How can I live at such extremes?
I wonder!

Do I wish to change, I question...
I am fine, I am good...I don't care..
There is no point anyways.,,
Love!

hm..

Life goes on....

This way or that, I am perfect
...what about self neglect?

haha more jargon.

hm

Purpose....

hm

Love, be nice , be sweet....

You are doing good
mwah
XOXO

Love- as he revealed himself to me!

Here and there I ran for your love
Did this, did that so that I would have your love
it left me tired, It left me weak

and then I heard silence speak

still I wanted your love..
still I would yearn and long
and then,
the Intensity soared beyond my tiny frame
leaving me Still

The heart prophecied...
that the only time I will have your love
is in the moments,

when you are happy and you smile
and you look at me with appreciation and
gratefulness in your eyes

That is all I wish for you and that is all you can give me
Be happy for me, I am happy for you

I have finally got it and this feels so good.
Too good, has to be true!

Loka Samasta Sukhino Bhavantu :-)

I know 100 more reasons but Check this!!!

Here is a little known fact, one that many websites and even Al Gore (An Inconvenient Truth) didn’t talk about. A meat based diet contributes to 40% more greenhouse gases than the pollution generated by ALL the traffic in the entire world put together! All the cars, buses, trains, planes and ships of the planet don’t pollute as much as the meat industry. They actually pollute 40% less!!



There are billions of animals being slaughtered every year. In the US alone, the number of animals being “processed” every year is more than 6 times the human population on the planet. Understand that these animals need food to eat and water to drink. They also excrete. The colossal amount of food and water that is pumped into this industry is enough to feed more than 50 times the current human population. In fact, if just 10% of the US population went vegetarian, there would be enough food for 800 million people and the entire world’s hunger problem would be solved!



If you ate a plant based diet, you would save so much water, that you could leave your shower on, 24 hours a day and 365 days a year and still save more water for the planet compared to a person having meat. A plant based diet is now accepted to be vastly superior for the human body than a meat based diet



The tremendous amount of resources needed to create meat translates therefore into billions of tons of greenhouse gases being released into the atmosphere…



Finally while you are combating global warming, by choosing to eat green, you also stand up for the meekest and smallest amongst us. Those helpless animals with no voice and no choice at all…



So at every meal, each person can make a greener, healthier, more humane choice: Eating vegetarian food!



The above is an extract from an article on Global Warming you may read here

Kymatica

I recommend the movie. You can watch it here Kymatica

Enjoy :-)

In Love. Forever :-)

Nirmal laughed when I told him over phone "Yaar mujhe toh Dinesh Bhaiya se hi shaadi karni hai, par woh ghar par rahenge hi nahi"
[Pal, I have to marry Dinesh Bhaiya, but he will hardly be home]
This must be around 2007 feb when I attended my first YES!++ with Bhaiya.

Now, Its just that every girl who meets him hears a prayer inside her go.."God please, bas I have found him , let him be the one for me, let me please have him for life. God please, God please,

this is it."

And she ends up smiling with all her heart when she hears that he is already married... "To the Divine" :-)

I have quite a lot pictures of Dinesh Bhaiya and he looks good in all of them . However when I observed him this january in the Ashram, standing, talking to someone, I realised no words,

no photos, nothing absolutely nothing can do justice to his charm.

Even this post will fail miserably at trying to describe what I wish to, but I so want to share this with all of you.

Again and again one word comes to mind - charm, divine, absolutely divine, like something so delicate yet perfect, like a ray of light, something that will ALWAYS escape my understanding

.

You know the experience.. we all have experienced it, the assurance in the arms of a friend, or the peace in the all knowing smile of a loved one ....You get what I am saying?
Now take Something that beautiful and transform it into a form/ a being and that is "Dinesh Bhaiya".
So ,
what is it that makes him what he is. I think one of the first posts on this blog is me looking for the answer :-)

So Who is Dinesh Bhaiya, this magic, this charm, this space,.... as deep as I want to go into this enquiry it brings me back to the beginning ...who are you bhawana...
and it all stops right there. Full stop and all I can do is smile :-)

Nirmal came back from his first YES!++ a few days back and wrote.."bhau... Dinu bhaiya... :-) Love at First Sight ! "

and I couldn't help laughing.
:-D

Afoo Khudaaa

It must be 1st year college(2005). Its difficult remembering years you know, because I topped all three.
hehe anyways!
And my best friend gave me a gift with this tag on the wrapper !
Now when I saw this, I knew I had to preserve it, not only for the feeling it carried but also because I knew this would come true very soon.

Yesterday celebrating my niece's 4rth birthday I knew life is perfect! I have all the world's Riches..happiness...Every heart's Love
There!
Went back my memory and I cannot even begin to pen down the beauty of the love I have experienced. There are so so so many excellent incidences/experiences/ memories I have had that it can not seriously be penned down in a day.
And the best part is they still continue..

Jee diya meiney, jee liya meiney, jee diya meiney, jee liya meiney
ab chahe mujhko zamaana goli maar de
Raja ke shikare ko bhanwar mein utaar de
Aage ji ke kya lena hai
mere dil ne jo bhi maanga tha woh paaya

--Movie : Jab Jab Phool Khile (1965)

[I have lived (also, I have given my heart away, and taken)
Now let the world shoot me
Let the king's boat be caught in a whirlpool
what have I got to take from life now
whatever my heart had asked for, it has got]

Heres wishing All of you what my best friend wished for me
Loka Samasta Sukhino Bhawantu
Be Yourself
Be Happy
Give
Love
Jai Gurudev

Let me praise you!

Let me praise you
Let that be my sole purpose for today.

Listen heavens! I speak of eternal joy
The laughter of my Beloved
The way he dances into my heart
and waves a gentle high

Sparkling through, his eyes find a way to my being
Every time he is around, he is a part of Me

Our hearts have had many a silent conversations
Many a questions, many a tears, all leading to one smile

The marriage rituals have been fulfilled
the souls have embraced
The vermilion forever in its place

I am transformed into the dust of his feet
Tonight I am complete

I hear the winds chime
as the trees rejoice
Its raining rose petals outside

As the Sun worships me today
My body becomes a transparent ray

The harvest has come
The farmers sing for grace
I see my Beloved in God's face

The winters chill reminds me
At my father's place I have to be
Father, I don't like your place
But let my Beloved wait

As the breeze kisses my Beloved's hair
I turn jealous,I am transformed into the air

I dance while
he smiles
Perhaps the meaning of life

For some more years, just this moment is all I have
Look, my Beloved speaks through rain
as he welcomes me home

Dark skies above and the sun shine on my skin

He presented me with the moon on my birthday
I bowed down, I bowed down,
The pain of separation too much to bear
I dissolved in the moon beams

In the sound of the universe
he sings for me
and I smile

He plays , I comply

The earth has turned into our bed
as I witness, the union from the heavens

I have tasted bliss this time
Look for me in a child's smile